“It feels as if everything is almost impossible to reach because they are just simply too hard and they seem to take forever.” Does this resonate with you as a major theme in your life? Then this article may be for you.
Important: Please take this article with healthy skepticism and use an open mind and critical thinking. The below can mean a lot of things so the conclusions here may be far from what happened to you. As with many of the articles on Self Chatter, the goal is to stimulate your thinking.
Do you have some of these things happening to you?
- Do you many times need to ‘jump up’ and leave? In other words, do you feel the need to escape from situations?
- Do you get anxious when you face a hard-to-solve situation and you fall into some kind of dissociative state? Do you many times have this thought that situations are extremely hard to solve?
- At times of these hard situations, is one of your fears that you may black out, or faint?
- When you have these hard situations, your body stiffens and you find that it is getting worse by the minute rather than better. Eventually to an unbearable level.
- You stop just before the finish. For instance, you leave the last bits of your food on the plate because it would be too hard to finish it all.
- Do you have the belief that life is mostly about doing things that you don’t want to? And you may feel you have no other choice but to do it.
Some possible reasons
Birth Trauma
If you look at the above symptoms with this in mind, you may agree that they resemble the heavy feelings and hard labor that happen during the birth process. The likelihood that you have unhealed birth trauma may be higher especially if you have psychosomatic symptoms (like convulsive, spastic body parts, above average physical reactions in hard situations).
If you have not heard of birth trauma before, imagine this: A baby with a yet underdeveloped body, no mental constructs developed yet to help her or him, with an equally exhausted mother, racing against time. Probably the hardest thing in our life is to be born.
A lot of people have unhealed birth trauma. The hardest thing about it is that we find it untraceable, unable to consciously connect it to an event. This article is not giving you a detailed description of birth trauma; You can find a lot of material about it. Anyways, if the above resonates with you, then consider that you may just ‘replay’ this trauma of yours in your life situations.
Inherited behavior
It may sound obvious but it sure is ‘easy’ to inherit such beliefs that will result in the above symptoms. And again, something hard to trace and connect the dots until you become conscious of it.
One addition: Imagine that you have a feeling of abandonment on top of the above. It will serve as glue…
You are going through a spiritual awakening
And you may not know it. Life is throwing these bitter and hard situations at you. You feel like you are constantly being tested all the time and it seems to never end. You have this image that you have to go through it anyways, coupled with the feeling that you don’t want it. The whole situation feels somewhat alien but still somewhat familiar, and it sucks. With the hope that it will be better. Sounds like a birth process.
(I personally believe that we are going through a major shift in consciousness.)
