“I am constantly tired because I am going through a profound change.”
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself. It is a real self-inquiry — one person’s inner dialogue on this question, unaltered except for readability.
Self-observation on my constant tiredness
- I am not able to come out of my tiredness. It has now become a new norm.
- Why can’t I let go and relax?
- I am constantly tired because I am constantly stressed.
- I try to let myself go and it just doesn’t work. I just sit in my tension.
- I am running away from something.
- No, I am not running away. I cannot look at it.
- I am not sure what it is that I have to look at.
- That thing that I should look at feels mild and fragile.
- I just don’t know what it is.
- What causes my tension?
- My physical tension is caused by mental tension.
- I don’t know what causes my mental tension.
- I am afraid of something.
- Nowadays this tension got bigger.
- My fear isn’t conscious. It is somewhere deeper.
- This is a trauma. This is why it is not conscious and this is why I have a hard time getting closer to it.
- I am fed up and tired of being in this anxiety.
- For a glimpse, now I see that this fear is helping me. In a way, I am helping myself.
- Strangely, this is not just fear but some need. There is a level of anger here also.
- This anxiety and anger I am working with is not like it used to be earlier. I have this recognition that I am going through a shift. This recognition is a huge thing. I think this shift is not only happening to me. I can see signs of it all around me. This shift is causing the tiredness.
- What I see now is that anxiety comes from some need to feel safe. I want to belong.
- I want to be myself. In that space, I am not anxious. I enjoy myself.
What would you find if you stopped trying to fix the tiredness — and instead looked at what it’s asking you to stop doing?
If you want to sit with this question, SelfChatter’s journal is built for exactly this kind of inner work.