"I can't possibly figure out what I am missing from my life with my 'everyday' mindset. I need to go beyond it."
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself. It is a real self-inquiry — one person's inner dialogue on this question, unaltered except for readability.
Self-observation on what I am missing
- I’ve come to the conclusion that the root of my hardships is that I am constantly missing something from my life.
- This feeling of lack shows up everywhere and I see how much this is shaping my whole outlook on life.
- I have been looking everywhere and try to find what I am missing. Or what I have lost.
- I deeply looked into my past. My childhood, my traumas, and how I developed shame, resentment, and anger. And all the rest of it.
- I also see how much love and joy I have had. And all the successes.
- And I have this constant feeling in the back of my mind that something is missing.
- Before I understood the effect of past events on my life. That understanding helped then. It is helpful today also but I understand very well that there is more to it.
- There is a sequence of steps in development. There is understanding that helps to develop the next one. Usually a deeper one.
- This feeling of lack is deeper. It is not just that things didn’t happen in the past the way I had hoped. Today those events serve as mere eye-openers for me. They are here to help.
- I suddenly come to the realization that what I am missing is commitment.
- Why do I have this realization? What does it mean? This understanding that what I miss is commitment feels happy. And fearful.
- Commitment to what we usually call God.
- Things aren’t in place without this.
- This is what I am missing.
What if what you're missing isn't something you lost — but something you haven't yet committed to?
If you want to sit with this question, SelfChatter's journal is built for exactly this kind of inner work.