“Strangely, it appears to me that the reason I am always in a hurry is because I have a lack of trust.”
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself. It is a real self-inquiry — one person’s inner dialogue on this question, unaltered except for readability.
Self-Observation on why I am always in a hurry
- This is clearly some kind of unconscious block in me as even when I see that I am in a hurry, I cannot stop it.
- I just keep on being in a hurry and it is making me even more nervous.
- Actually I even want to speed it up. Because I want to finish as soon as possible to ‘escape this hard situation’.
- I speed it up and so I get even more exhausted.
- I am afraid of the situation itself.
Chain of thoughts coming when I am able to go deeper
- It appears to me that my need to hurry up comes up in situations where I have an ‘obligation’, some work that I feel I must do. I am not in a hurry where I have no ‘obligation to deliver’.
- I have a self-confidence issue. My need to speed things up is due to the fear of the ‘situation’.
- No. It is not a pure self-confidence issue.
- It is a question of trust.
- Let me approach it from another way and imagine myself with this mindset: If I had complete trust that this situation, this work to be done would work out just fine, I would have no urge to hurry it. It is not a self-confidence thing alone. It is trusting that things will work out fine; It is not just about me.
What would happen if you trusted that this moment — right now, as it is — will work out without you rushing through it?
If you want to sit with this question, SelfChatter’s journal is built for exactly this kind of inner work.