"The phone isn't the problem. it's that somewhere along the way, we never learned that being uncomfortable is sometimes just part of being alive, not an emergency to escape."
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself.
Seeker
I hate this about myself. Every time I feel even slightly uncomfortable, I’m on my phone. Anxious? Phone. Bored? Phone. Someone watching? Phone. Sad? Phone. It’s like I can’t sit with anything anymore.
Companion
Yes, I know that one. The phone becomes like this instant off-ramp from whatever’s happening inside. What kind of uncomfortable are we talking about?
Seeker
All kinds. Like yesterday, I was waiting for test results from the doctor, and I probably scrolled for three hours straight. Just mindless nothing. Instagram, news, whatever. I wasn’t even reading anything.
Companion
Just moving. Just keeping the mind occupied.
Seeker
Exactly. And I know it’s bad for me. I’ve read all the articles about dopamine and attention spans. I’ve tried app timers, leaving my phone in another room. Nothing works.
Companion
Hm. I notice you’re focusing a lot on the phone itself. Like it’s the villain here.
Seeker
Well, isn’t it? I mean, they’re designed to be addictive.
Companion
Sure, that’s true. But I’m curious about something else. When you were waiting for those test results, before you picked up the phone, what was happening in your body?
Seeker
I don’t know. I was anxious, obviously.
Companion
But specifically. Like, where did you feel it? What did it feel like?
Seeker
I… I don’t actually remember. I think I just grabbed my phone immediately.
Companion
Yes. Something I’ve been noticing in myself lately is that I often don’t even let the discomfort fully arrive before I’m already managing it. Like there’s this split-second where something uncomfortable starts to form, and boom, I’m already in motion to make it go away.
Seeker
Yes! That’s exactly it. It’s so automatic.
Companion
I’ve been trying this thing where I just… don’t. Where I let the uncomfortable feeling actually be there. Not to analyze it or breathe through it or any technique. Just to see what it’s actually like to be uncomfortable.
Seeker
That sounds horrible.
Companion
It kind of is. But also, I’m starting to realize I’ve never actually learned how to just be uncomfortable. Like, when did anyone ever teach us that sometimes you just feel bad and that’s… fine?
Seeker
Nobody taught me that. My mom would immediately try to fix any bad feeling. Food, distraction, positive thinking, whatever.
Companion
Right. So maybe the phone isn’t the real issue. Maybe it’s that you’re trying to never feel uncomfortable, and the phone is just your current tool for that.
Seeker
Fuck. Yes. That’s… yeah.
Companion
I mean, I could be wrong. But when I started letting myself actually feel anxious without immediately fixing it, something shifted. Not that the anxiety went away. More like I stopped being afraid of feeling anxious.
Seeker
I literally cannot imagine just sitting there feeling anxious and not doing anything about it.
Companion
What do you think would happen if you did?
Seeker
I don’t know. I guess I imagine I’d spiral or have a panic attack or something.
Companion
Maybe. Or maybe you’d just feel anxious for a while and then it would shift on its own. But you won’t know until you try it.
Seeker
This is making me want to check my phone right now.
Companion
Are you feeling uncomfortable?
Seeker
Yes. This whole conversation is uncomfortable.
Companion
So what’s happening right now? In your body?
Seeker
My chest feels tight. My hands are kind of tingly. I have this urge to move.
Companion
And you’re still here. Still talking to me. The discomfort hasn’t killed you.
Seeker
No. It hasn’t.
Companion
That’s interesting, isn’t it?
Seeker
I guess it is. F*ck. I really have been running from every uncomfortable feeling my entire life, haven’t I?
Companion
I don’t know about your entire life. But it sounds like you’re noticing a pattern.
Seeker
Yes. I am.
What would change if you discovered you could survive your own discomfort without managing it?
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