“The success I wish for myself is most probably blocked by my fear.”
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself. It is a real self-inquiry — one person’s inner dialogue on this question, unaltered except for readability.
Self-observation on why I am not successful enough
- I imagine myself very differently inside than how my life is on the outside.
- I dream of becoming successful but it just doesn’t seem to happen.
- I am continuously trying everything. Harder and harder. Sometimes I am trying to be smarter, more self-confident, and even tried to ‘believe the universe will help me’.
- It is a constant struggle. I just know instinctively that it should not be a never-ending battle and overwhelm.
- There must be something that can change this situation.
- When I think of my abilities, my self-confidence drops.
- Still, it is not about my abilities. Many others have less in many areas and they are still more successful than me.
- When I observe myself, I feel a great level of uneasiness.
- This uneasiness comes from my desire to achieve.
- My mindset is that if I push it more, I will achieve what I want.
- No, this is not the way. There must be a better way.
- I admit I don’t know what to do exactly.
Chain of thoughts coming when I am able to go deeper
- Something is blocking me.
- I am not able to be myself.
- I am afraid to be myself. This is the block in me.
- I have low self-confidence and this is why reaching success is a struggle.
- No.
- Behind my low self-confidence is fear. Simple fear. Fear of losing my safety.
- The block is not my low self-confidence. That thought of myself that I have low self-confidence only happens as a result of my fear. The key is my fear.
- This is why I don’t ‘dare to jump’ and do what is needed for my success.
- And the way it works is that I block myself from being who I really am.
- I am not able to be that vibrant person who I want to be.
- This fear is teaching me to see who I really am.
- This fear might even be more than that. I may be able to transform it into something that I miss now in myself.
- I will think about what I would like to transform my fear – my new friend – into.
What would you do with your life if success didn’t require you to become someone other than who you already are?
If you want to sit with this question, SelfChatter’s journal is built for exactly this kind of inner work.