Does this resonate with you? “I have unspokenly set myself the life goal to achieve something big. Why?” If so, then this exercise may be valuable to you.
The below is a possible flow of thoughts, emotions, and associations that come up in the mind when doing self-observation on this thought. It is meant to help you go deeper into this thought and stimulate you. By no means it is implied that it is the only flow or it is the same for everyone.
(If you are new to the concept of self-observation or looking for some practical guidance then maybe read this article: How Self-Observation Works)
Self-Observation on my desire to achieve something big
I can only think of my life that it must be a success story. By success, I mean something big. Anything else is almost meaningless and is many times just a waste of energy.
It is putting a burden on everything that I do in my life.
- Nothing is good enough.
It feels good to think about the time when I will be truly successful.
This is an order I have given myself. I feel I need to sacrifice myself for this.
This goal is not a cause but an effect. I understand from books, psychologists, and others that this is a sign that I have low self-esteem. I don’t see it this way.
I allow no real playfulness for myself. Now I realize that I sort of look down on people who are not hard-working super-achievers.
Everything is hard to achieve. Close to impossible.
I do not allow myself to fail.
Chain of thoughts coming when I am able to go deeper
I think I have set this goal for myself. I don’t remember when. But it is coming from me. At least this is how I perceive it.
My mindset is such that everything is very serious.
- I identified my life with this goal.
I just now realize that I have set myself a goal that is impossible to reach.
I also realize that there is something paradox in my thinking: I set a goal that is near-impossible to reach and only then I will be fine. But: I sort of ‘know’ that the only way to reach it is if I change completely. Then sadly it means that I must have a problem with my own self.
- Can I only reach what I want if I change myself? Is this a good logic and life goal?
Notes
- If you are new to the practice of self-observation then here are some ideas that can help: It is very powerful if you write down your thoughts (like with an old-school diary). It is also very powerful if you phrase your thoughts and emotions in a short and basic way.
- Self Chatter is a self-development tool and one of its major goals is to help with self-observation as a major tool to raise your consciousness. Thus you will find these types of self-observations on Self Chatter.
(None of the articles on Self Chatter are generated by AI.)
