The strange thing about fear and time is that fear only exists in the past and in the future in my mind.
How cool is this?: Any time I am able to truly be in the present (I personally use meditation) my fear is gone.
Right the instant my thoughts start to wander, fear comes back sooner or later. If this is so then logic tells me that fear doesn’t exist, only my thoughts create it.
Where it is less than cool – at least for me – is that I can very hardly release my fears: When I can truly observe it, get immersed in it, it is gone. And then it comes back. It is like a ghost, like a trickster.
I do have many successes, I do use many methods – like EMDR, meditation, journaling, phrasing my thoughts effectively, other trauma elimination tecniques -, but I am just not satisfied.
I guess I am between two worlds. Today I think that it has to do with decision. Which world do I decide to belong to?
