“I can’t possibly figure out what I am missing from my life with my ‘everyday’ mindset. I need to go beyond it.” If this resonates with you, this exercise may be valuable to you.
Self-observation on what I am missing
- I’ve come to the conclusion that the root of my hardships is that I am constantly missing something from my life.
- This feeling of lack shows up everywhere and I see how much this is shaping my whole outlook on life.
- I have been looking everywhere and try to find what I am missing. Or what I have lost.
- I deeply looked into my past. My childhood, my traumas, and how I developed shame, resentment, and anger. And all the rest of it.
- I also see how much love and joy I have had. And all the successes.
- And I have this constant feeling in the back of my mind that something is missing.
- Before I understood the effect of past events on my life. That understanding helped then. It is helpful today also but I understand very well that there is more to it.
- There is a sequence of steps in development. There is understanding that helps to develop the next one. Usually a deeper one.
- This feeling of lack is deeper. It is not just that things didn’t happen in the past the way I had hoped. Today those events serve as mere eye-openers for me. They are here to help.
- I suddenly come to the realization that what I am missing is commitment.
- Why do I have this realization? What does it mean? This understanding that what I miss is commitment feels happy. And fearful.
- Commitment to what we usually call God.
- Things aren’t in place without this.
- This is what I am missing.
The above self-observation exercise is just one possible flow of associations. It is meant to stimulate you and by no means it is implied that it is about you.
(If you are new to the concept of self-observation or looking for some practical guidance then maybe read this article: How Self-Observation Works)
