“I am constantly tired because I am going through a profound change.” If this resonates with you, this exercise may be valuable to you.
Self-observation on my constant tiredness
- I am not able to come out of my tiredness. It has now become a new norm.
- Why can’t I let go and relax?
- I am constantly tired because I am constantly stressed.
- I try to let myself go and it just doesn’t work. I just sit in my tension.
- I am running away from something.
- No, I am not running away. I cannot look at it.
- I am not sure what it is that I have to look at.
- That thing that I should look at feels mild and fragile.
- I just don’t know what it is.
- What causes my tension?
- My physical tension is caused by mental tension.
- I don’t know what causes my mental tension.
- I am afraid of something.
- Nowadays this tension got bigger.
- My fear isn’t conscious. It is somewhere deeper.
- This is a trauma. This is why it is not conscious and this is why I have a hard time getting closer to it.
- I am fed up and tired of being in this anxiety.
- For a glimpse, now I see that this fear is helping me. In a way, I am helping myself.
- Strangely, this is not just fear but some need. There is a level of anger here also.
- This anxiety and anger I am working with is not like it used to be earlier. I have this recognition that I am going through a shift. This recognition is a huge thing. I think this shift is not only happening to me. I can see signs of it all around me. This shift is causing the tiredness.
- What I see now is that anxiety comes from some need to feel safe. I want to belong.
- I want to be myself. In that space, I am not anxious. I enjoy myself.
The above self-observation exercise is just one possible flow of associations. It is meant to stimulate you and by no means it is implied that it is about you.
(If you are new to the concept of self-observation or looking for some practical guidance then maybe read this article: How Self-Observation Works)
