Because you need to make the first step.
Do you know why it is you to make the first step? Because nobody and nothing can take away or weaken your willpower and you have it forever. The Universe – God, Source, and however you connect to it – will not ‘poke’ you or will ever try to show you that you have it because that would downgrade you and your willpower. Suh a thing can not be done to you and your greatest friend would never do such a thing to you anyways.

(We live in a twisted world right now and so we don’t see and access our willpower as it is. This is why it may be that what is in the title is what you will right now.)

And you may actually get the help that you need. You may be doing that first step.