“There is nothing wrong with me actually. The reason I dislike my work is because inside I know how toxic the world of work has become by now.”
If this resonates with you, what follows may help you see something about yourself. It is a real self-inquiry — one person’s inner dialogue on this question, unaltered except for readability.
Self-observation on why I don’t want to work anymore. This is what I feel when I think of my job.
- Leave me alone with all this bullshit!
- Don’t force such nonsense on me!
- Stop passively or actively shame or bully me! Don’t you know better? I do. I want to be a sensible person also at my job.
- Don’t scare me?
- Don’t knowingly manipulate me into things I don’t want to do.
- Of course I don’t like my job anymore; It is a toxic place.
- I understand that this exercise I am doing is less about self reflection but I know that this is right.
- The big realization for me is that I know I am right. This is the key for me here.
- I understand that some are also projections of mine but actually they are also correct.
- I know that most workplaces are like that. But again; I don’t care. It doesn’t change that I don’t want to be in such environments. It appears that I grew out of it.
What if the part of you that refuses to work isn’t broken — but is the first part of you that sees clearly?
If you want to sit with this question, SelfChatter’s journal is built for exactly this kind of inner work.