Does this resonate with you? – “I can’t figure out what I want from my life because something is pulling me back into this warm, cradle-like state of being.” If so, this exercise may be valuable to you.
Self-reflection on why I can’t figure out what I want from my life?
- What is it really I am looking for?
- I want to feel calm and relaxed.
- And sometimes quite the opposite; I want to feel wild.
- I want to feel safe.
- I am looking for love also. And Success.
- Ah, I could go on with this list.
- What I do see about myself now is that I am in a state of chaos.
- I want this chaos to end.
- This chaotic state depletes my energy level and I just want to relax and calm down.
- I have my ways of calming myself. I go into my warm, dream-like state that is so well known to me. It is like being in a cradle.
- And this ‘cradle’ is sucking me in. It is truly comforting and nurturing.
- But when I observe myself I see that this is not what I really want. Deep down I feel that this alone isn’t right for me anymore.
- I don’t want to be ‘sucked into this cradle’ anymore. I don’t just want to be one with it; It is not enough for me; My life has to be about other things too.
- And as I am looking at this cradle, I realize I am afraid of it.
- Actually it is a big soup of chaotic everything. And the more I immerse in it, the more I lose my consciousness.
- I realize now that my ‘cradle’ isn’t just all good. It is actually dangerous.
- And most importantly, it wants to suck me in. It is its nature.
- I am truly frightened to totally immerse into it. And I am frightened not to become my own Self.
- It is fear that keeps me confused.
- And luckily my open heart.
- I cannot think of a better feeling as I am writing these lines than the vision of my open heart. It is coming from both poles.
The above is a possible flow of thoughts, emotions, and associations that come up in the mind when doing self-observation on this thought. It is meant to help you go deeper into this thought and stimulate you. By no means it is implied that it is the only one or it is the same for everyone.
(If you are new to the concept of self-observation or looking for some practical guidance then maybe read this article: How Self-Observation Works)
Notes
- If you are new to the practice of self-observation then here are some ideas that can help: It is very powerful if you write down your thoughts (like with an old-school diary). It is also very powerful if you phrase your thoughts and emotions in a short and basic way.
- Self Chatter is a self-development tool and one of its major goals is to help with self-observation as a major tool to raise your consciousness. Thus you will find these types of self-observations on Self Chatter.
(None of the articles on Self Chatter are generated by AI.)
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